Starting out with a Burnout aka Welcome to 2020

As I am one "have a great day!" Spotify playlist and a borrowed vape away from having my daily breakdowns, the familiar bittersweet feeling of burnout starts to fill my lungs again.

I must be short fused you say, I just had 3 months of no work but that ain't this easy. Partly, it had made it even worse. While being on furlough with high functioning depression did its damage, I also managed to recharge a lot. I didn't know I will start caring again so much about work, it's not like I planned it this way, okay?

But I do.

And caring about something you convinced yourself to let go, putting your 110% effort in before giving it all up is quite frankly

1. exhausting

2. unappreciated

3. stupid.


But I guess I have never been the smart one.



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